No seriously. I really think something is wrong with me! My crush is my ex uncle. LOL. No but for real my aunt used to date a guy. I always thought he was so fine. He ended up cheating on my aunt and married the woman he cheated on her with. His kids and I are particularly close, they are al ot younger than me, but they consider me their big cousin. I did their hair back in the day, babysat them, cooked. My aunt couldn't cook a lick!
Either way, his youngest daughter is a student @ Spelman, I take her to lunch and shopping often, she tells everyone I am her cousin because I somehow consider her to be, although her father and my aunt no longer date. She told me last week her dad was in town. I haven't seen him in ages, so I met them for dinner. When I tell you he was FINER THAN HE EVER WAS!
He gave me a hug and his body was so rock hard. I got a chill through my spin. Of course he is married why me But later that night I had a dream about him. I had a dream that we were married and everyone wanted to know how he married someone 20 years younger than him. But I was his prize! lol. Too funny. I am hilarious! That man is fine though, if he ever tried to contact me I wouldn't even think twice married or not
CAKE OR BED... A HUSBAND IS AT HOME WATCHING A FOOTBALL GAME WHEN HIS WIFE INTERRUPTS,
'HONEY, COULD YOU FIX THE LIGHT IN THE HALLWAY? IT'S BEEN FLICKERING FOR WEEKS NOW'.
HE LOOKS AT HER AND SAYS ANGRILY, 'FIX THE LIGHTS NOW? DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE GE WRITTEN ON MY FOREHEAD? I DON'T THINK SO'.
FINE,
THEN THE WIFE ASKS, 'WELL THEN, COULD YOU FIX THE FRIDGE DOOR? IT WON'T CLOSE RIGHT '
TO WHICH HE REPLIED, 'FIX THE FRIDGE DOOR? DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE WESTINGHOUSE WRITTEN ON MY FOREHEAD? I DON'T THINK SO'.
'FINE', SHE SAYS 'THEN YOU COULD AT LEAST FIX THE STEPS TO THE FRONT DOOR? THEY ARE ABOUT TO BREAK '
'I'M NOT A CARPENTER AND I DON'T WANT TO FIX STEPS'. HE SAYS, 'DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE ACE HARDWARE WRITTEN ON MY FOREHEAD? I DON'T THINK SO I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU. I'M GOING TO THE BAR!!!! '
SO HE GOES TO THE BAR AND DRINKS FOR A COUPLE OF HOURS....................................
HE STARTS TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT HOW HE TREATED HIS WIFE, AND DECIDES TO GO HOME
AS HE WALKS INTO THE HOUSE, HE NOTICES THAT THE STEPS ARE ALREADY FIXED.
AS HE ENTERS THE HOUSE, HE SEES THE HALL LIGHT IS WORKING.
AS HE GOES TO GET A BEER, HE NOTICES THE FRIDGE DOOR IS FIXED.
'HONEY', HE ASKS, 'HOW'D ALL THIS GET FIXED?' SHE SAID, 'WELL, WHEN YOU LEFT I SAT OUTSIDE AND CRIED.
J UST THEN A NICE YOUNG MAN ASKED ME WHAT WAS WRONG, AND I TOLD HIM.
HE OFFERED TO DO ALL THE REPAIRS, AND ALL I HAD TO DO WAS EITHER GO TO BED WITH HIM OR BAKE A CAKE'.
THE HUSBAND ASKED, 'SO WHAT KIND OF CAKE DID YOU BAKE?'
SHE REPLIED, 'HELLOOOOO.. DO YOU SEE BETTY CROCKER WRITTEN ON MY FOREHEAD? I DON'T THINK SO!'
I just started exercising on a regular basis. My whole BODY HURTS!!!! omg people what am I going to do! Please help Me! My trainer is gonna kill me!
I think my trainer is kinda CUTE!! I don't need another obsession with another man! lol..
In other news Easter was great, went to a cookout with Bear and his family. Random and surprising. But he invited me over, and I came! Church was even better! I ended up going to a "megachurch" it is my home church but I haven't been attending in quite some time. I am over the whole "megachurch" feel. It was great though and I saw some my family!
My married boyfriend called and said that he will be in town in 2 weeks. I will let you all know how that turns out. I haven't talked to him in weeks, since before LA but he sends me an email or texts me everyday and lets me know I am on his mind.
Other than that all is well. No real juicy gossip today. Rain is taking over my ego! Love you all
Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal.. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit."
If I could Forget Bear, I would. I would easily, stop going to the same hair salon, which is next door to his car wash and rim shop. I could move to the other side of town and live in the suburbs. I could do so many things. But a man HAS NEVER made me change my zipcode. So because of this, I run into him everywhere I go.
I just got back from a week long trip in LA. Sponsored by Bear of course. He left a bag on my doorstep, in it was the Chanel Bag you see pictured. With $500 and a plane ticket to LA. Never has anyone done anything like that for me. I knew it was him, because about 4 months ago, we were in Saks and I told him that I really, really wanted a brown Chanel bag. I even pointed out the 1 I wanted. He knows I have girlfriends in LA, so it was no problem to let them know that in 2 days, I would touchdown into HOLLYWOOD.
The weather here in Atlanta has been super cold and then super warm, so needless to say I was so ready to get into the business of all day warm weather, sandles and endless doses of fashion!
I called him, thanked him and of course he came right back over. The sex was incredible. I really believe I owed myself a decent orgasm after weeks of no sex. He gave me $2000 and said "Make sure you stay in Hollywood" Knowing I could get a hotel room on Orbitz for way cheaper thn $2000 a week, I stacked the bread and went shopping.
F what you heard, I make great money and I take care of myself but I looove some H&M and Papaya! I went crazy in my favorite mall(No its not Lennox) and picked up some Juicy Couture swimsuits and Chanel Sunglasses.
LA was beautiful and I shopped more there! I can't wait till I get another trip there. There really are no details other than, pure drunken hot girl moments, ichat with Bear and walking around the beach alone. It was exactly what I needed. FREE OF CHARGE!
Dudes were popping bottles and yes, I had a 1 night stand with a known celebrity, whom I date here and there in Atlanta.
I wish I could do just a blind item. This celebrity loves my skin and has a fetish for it. He likes to lick it and rub it for at least 30min before we fuck. I thought it was weird at 1st but his dick is so huge that I let his kinkiness subside in my brain. He knows that I like it rough and pulls my hair, so hard!
*Currently Relapsing* I think he is going to be back in the A next week.
I really am wishing Bear was my man, I know he has a girlfriend now, its so evident. I'm Girlfriend #2. For the longest, I was ok with it because he was boyfriend #3 but I wonder, if I get Chanel and all expense paid trips to LA what is SHE getting? I cried for an hour on the flight home, thinking about how in love with Bear I am. Only time will tell..
The world has fucked me in so many ways, till I no longer need a condom. It goes completely raw even if I beg for it not to!
No matter how often I make a pledge to get every single dollar that I feel I am worth, from every single dude I fuck, a bitch like me somehow falls in love or decides its NOT WORTH it at the end.
I have been in love with only 2 men. Both of which have taught me this one lesson. ALWAYS HAVE SOMEONE THAT LOVES YOU MORE THAN YOU LOVE THEM
The Lord loves me and he hears my cry, more importantly he doesn't give a damn if I make dumb promises to you that I can't keep. He wants me to be happy in the end and really thats all that matters.
No matter how powerful the hold a man may have on you, its your decision to let him go. If he treats you bad, even if your emotions overflow with love, leave that zero alone. I promise it will only get worse
I am in the fight of my life, I may be bigger than my opponent in size but my heart is definitely smaller. I am judged everyday of my life, but I know that the biggest judge of them All (Big Baby Jesus) loves me more than he will ever know, so it keeps me fighting for what I think is right, even if you think its wrong.
They say you are what you eat, so I guess I'm as messed up as I seem.
Even with the times I have been molested, held against my will and forced to do things I didn't want or need to do, I never consider myself a victim. The Lord said "vengeance" is mine.
The more days I live, the harder it is not to want more, I ask him to enlarge my territory and more and more men come into my life.
Married Men are like baby wipes, they smell so good when you open the pack, but once they are used for their worth they stink just like everything else.
I love myself, really hard, more than anyone could love me, mainly because I talk to myself at least 3 times a day, question every decision I make and rarely understand the point behind my actions. I take responsibility for every action, I admit when I'm wrong only to myself and I have a potty mouth.
Yes, as shocking as it may seem, I gave Bear the pink slip. As shocking as it may shound, I did it to save myself! Yes, he was a great "silent partner" yes he started catching feelings to a degree and yes before I knew it I was too, but it was good while it lasted.
I had a inckling he had a girl. But I spent every night with him, and I wasn't the least bit concerned. As far as it mattered to me, he was my man and she was the chick on the side.
But soon weeks went by and I didn't see him. I would text and he wouldn't reply till hours later, but I still didn't trip cause whenever I called he was there for me regardless! Then a month ago I decided that enough was enough and I needed to cut him off.
I mean he isn't the real boyfriend type anyway. We always worked around HIS schedule and I wasn't getting fucked on the regular. It was time to let him know that my body didn't belong to him so he could fuck when he wanted to!
Seriously, it felt good! But I still have to see him because we live close by each other and its pretty inevitable. He asked me yesterday, if I would come over tonight. I said no nigga we not fucking anymore!! He got quiet and looked at me crazy! Walked away and came back. Grabbed me and pulled me close and even kissed me in public. Yes that shit turned me on, but to keep it real it showed me what I already knew Bear missed the pussy but he didn't deserve it anymore!
