The 1st time I felt a woman

I'm taking a break and Part 3 of the engagment story will premier in a couple days. While I was alone this past weekend and Bear was in NYC I went to Onyx. I love the girls at Onyx but shout out to the Magic City chicks. I don't even think the girls at Onyx even got on the pole! Gigi is my favorite on the pole at Magic but I digress. It made me think of the 1st time I felt a woman. It was when I was 8. At 8, I used to finger my baby sitter's daughter. We would hunch and touch each other after school while my baby sitter was doing what she wasn't supposed to be doing. I grew up alone most of the time. Mom and Dad always worked and when they weren't working they were on their "Date nights" I was left alone with my nanny and her daughter who was 2 years older than me.I grew up the only child at home. My older brother is 15 years older than me and he is still in the damn Airforce all these years later! I haven't seen him in years! You won't get that much of my personal life so thats about it about my family. Back to the story at hand.I get sidetracked easily. I remember feeling the insides of a woman. I know yall are thinking 8?! Who thinks of that then? But I did, I thought boys were cute but I didn't want to see their penis! I wanted to see breasts and such. "Jessica" and I would hunch and finger each other until I was about 12 and she was 14. She then thought what we were doing was "gay" and would constantly taunt me because I would beg her mom to let me sleep in the guest house with them.

I don't know why I'm not gay, honestly and I don't believe it when people say they are "born" gay. I always wanted to touch women,but I later fell in love with men. I personally think all women are attracted to each other, we may not all respond to it but we all love the scent, the feel and the look of each other as women. If you disagree please let me know! Cause I doubt it! Not everyone acts on it but EVERY WOMAN has wanted to touch another woman!

After that I didn't touch a girl again till I was 18. My freshman year at MIT. I had my 1st lesbian relationship. I took "Callie" home with me and my parents thought she was my best friend. My dad kept looking at her and I laughed so hard when he asked her if she had a boyfriend. Callie said "I have someone I'm in love with and they love me too, but not a boyfriend" After that my mom said we needed to talk. I didn't tell her I was gay, but I did tell her I still liked men. She never questioned me after that but Callie and I broke up soon after and there wasn't a reason I would ever bring a girl home.

Lastly this is my advice to women who have questioned their sexuality. Express yourself. It's not "natural" for a woman to be with another woman. Women are naturally attracted to men. But that doesn't mean you should feel weird if you like women or if you ever got turned on by a woman. The 1st time it happened to me,I said "its not way I'm gay" and I'm not gay. I am a woman who likes women. I'm not attracted to all women actually I'm rarely attracted to a woman. However,when I always get what I want when it comes to women and gay, bi, straight, if I want you I will have you. So women, don't feel ashamed that you are attracted to women, go to the strip club, watch lesbian porn(MY PERSONAL FAVORITE) just connect with your womanly side, doesn't mean you are gay, just means you like what you like! I promise your man will enjoy it later!

Part 3 of 5 will be coming b4 the end of the week!

Until then I AM,

SBF ATLANTA